tell me the truth. [not.]

i'm a very non-confrontational person when it comes to the area of friendship. put a creepy guy in my face and thats a different story but overall, i live for the peace. i will compromise what i want in order to eliminate the possibility of confrontation. i think of one friendship in particular where i didn't voice what i wanted because i didn't want to upset that friend. eventually resentment grew and we hit a point where we had to talk about it or go our separate ways. that girl is one of my very best friends and i think we learned a lot through it. more than that, i think we figured out how to communicate with each other. i'd say one of the most deadly combinations is defensiveness alongside fear of confrontation. through that fight, we realized that no matter what, our intentions were pure and we wanted the best for each other overall.

fast forward to now: i could tell her exactly what i thought of her (now EX) boyfriend and because she knew i loved her and wanted the best for her, she took the advice. personally, i would have a rough time with that. i have had a history of hearing friends' opinions on a relationship but doing what i want anyways. in a more recent relationship, i held onto it because i thought it would get better. "he can change" "i can change" were lies that i told myself daily. when it finally blew up in my face, i realized "shit, maybe my friends were right all along..."

i know that she is a very good friend and goes against the grain in taking advice with a grain of salt but i wonder if people overall appreciate honesty. do people really want to know what i think of them and their choices? i'm thinkin no. there are even rules about talking about boyfriends. you can't say anything bad because if they stay with the boyfriend they'll know you resent the boyfriend and the relationship. i wonder why people are afraid of the truth and what it is about learning from our mistakes that humans are so big on.

to my amigos reading this (my 3 followers--i guess i'm talking to you), if i ask you for advice call me out. i want to be better, and if i trust you enough for your opinion...TELL ME THE TRUTH.

that is all.

okay fine, i'll put up my fav pictures from LA. this is my beautiful best friend and the place she lives.